struggle (4/9/25)
this is probably the Nth time i've complained about life but i'm just downright exhausted. i'm tired

tariffs are coming in. i live in a lower class family so it's going to be a lot harder to get food on a regular basis. my mother's health keeps fluctuating so i'm scrambling for a job in case things go wrong. i can't drive and even if i could i wouldn't have the money for a car. i just don't know what to do anymore

i protest when i'm able but i can't singlehandedly stop the beginnings of a worldwide trade war. i feel like i have to put all the things i want to do on hold so i can feel secure. i've been drawing miku in memes just to make me laugh in this shitty time but i also just want to get my bigger projects done

it's harder for me to connect with friends and new people in general. i feel more and more distant from them but no one has done anything to warrant that even though so many have resources to help and i willingly take it. i'm not alone but i feel alone

i'll survive. i just wish i didn't have to fight to do it