two days ago, i heard the news about akira toriyama's passing, creator of dragon ball. i haven't been able to figure out what to say, so i might as well go ahead with it now
i haven't been able to fully process loss recently. just before this, i was similarly devastated about janice burgess, creator of the backyardigans' passing. both have had influences on me in some way or another, though burgess' work was one that raised me and toriyama's was one that influenced my style by a little, it's something that's hard for me to fully process. people are going to die someday, yet i don't understand how i continue to just take it as something that just happened, no sadness, no crying. the only time i ever cried at a loss (that i can remember) was a family member that died as a result of illness brought on by old age. i do like to advocate for the living, but in my case it's hard to process is that someone is actually gone when it's too late. i feel like the mere memory of their existence is enough to make me feel like they're still there, but it's unable to be ignored once all the post-passing shock and grief goes away. it kind of sinks in and also doesn't
case and point, a death that isn't recent but still lingers for me is edd gould's, creator of eddsworld. i didn't know him when he was still alive, yet watching his work and subsequent legacy series makes me feel like he's still around, but he isn't, the existence of his work feels like it's enough to give off the feeling he's living. i guess that's a weird thing about art, the work you leave behind kind of sets your memory and legacy in stone and people forget what happened to you for a little, an entertainer's job well done. if i ever do leave a legacy for myself, i want it to be that
no more talk about death though, i'm on the cusp of officially graduating. Yayyyyy. my history and english scores on my ged are college ready, but i'm not entirely sure if i want to go to college. there's a community college i've considered attending for a variety of reasons, but it really depends on where i'll end up. life at home has gotten increasingly miserable and i may have to stay with a family member which isn't fun, but it's fine
lastly, it's miku day :) i haven't had time to draw something since i've been focusing on a seperate project that had to be finished around the same time, so here's a drawing i attempted to make for miku's 16th birthday that i never finished
that's all from me thumbs up. hoping i'll go to bed at a reasonable hour today lol